day twenty seven - chewing
Often, I’ll find myself playing catch-up. It’s not always hard to see that things need to be done especially with so much on my plate, but sadly, I’m not always mentally able to deal with the task at the time, and gradually get through the workload.
Inaction (oft due to anxiety), sometimes leads to long periods of procrastination and guilt, leading to the near-inevitable game of catch-up in an attempt to ‘right the ship’. The resulting productivity often relieves some of these feelings, but the guilt of inaction - of not being better at the time rather than in retrospect, doesn’t go away as quickly.
It’s already been clearly established that I was, and am, grossly underprepared for this year in a kilt. The website launched late. While I am writing the journal each day, they sometimes get composed in my head and posted in a clump (sorry). I currently only have three kilts on high rotation. I get flustered when people ask me what it’s all about. Frankly - it’s shambolic, and I feel like I’ll be forever playing catch-up.
Whilst I probably need to learn more about more carefully considering what I say ‘yes’ to, how much I can fit on my plate, and what my appetite is at the time, there is something really rewarding about just sitting down and chewing.
Kilt of the day - Black Watch
Soundtrack of the day - Tee Time - Vulfpeck
